Hello Everybody!
I'm back! I'm not sure if its for long, because I have no idea what the future will hold, but I'm here right now!
I have some good news! Lord willing, Jessica and I get to go to summer camp this year again with Rachel! I can't wait! Except I have a tiny drop if dread that makes me glad it's a long way off. :( It is this: The diving board. You see, the first year when I went to camp, I was 9 years old and all I did was look at that scary board. Well, last year, the second time we went, I actually got out of the pool, got in line, waited, climbed on the board, walked to the end looked down, ... and turned around and came back off! I admit to being a slight coward, but I'm terrified that that water will swallow me up whole and I can't surface again. The first time I did anything like that was a water slide. When it got to my turn I let the kid behind me go. And the next kid, and the next, and the next! When the lifeguard told me I had to go or come down I decided to go eventually. Jessica came to me at the end, I forgot how to swim in the panic I guess!
Besides that one, there was one other bad experience with water that I have: last year I decided to jump off a rock that was about 5 feet above the water. Some other kids were jumping off and I guess I felt like I had to. I was wearing my life vest, but when I jumped, the next thing I knew the world seemed to stop. I knew I was deep under and I felt trapped. I came up sobbing. My Dad caught me then. I was alright. But I never forgot the frozen feeling of being deep.
So what do you think? I'm really scared and the butterflies in my stomach at the end of the board at camp might just be a bit too much for me to handle. Do I wait? P.S. I didn't exaggerate, but usually this type of thing isn't as bad as it really sounds.
Thank you all for being such a wonderful, silent, and open audience for my crazy brain occurrences!
And Thank you Julia, Rachel and Jessica for ALL being my BFFs!
<3 - Julia Lynn C.
